Hours of Journey: 9h45' - Accumulative: 201h15
Km./Day: 25,8 - Accumulative: 407,6Km. Remaining to the South Pole: 737,6Km.
Days of progress: 24 (20 Solo) - Inactive Days: 15 (0 Solo) - Total Days: 39
How hard it is for the terrain conditions to improve... Today was very hard all the time but very irregular and bumpy, with groups of massive Sastruguis that I had to keep avoiding. With all of that in mind, I was able to keep a good pace, but the sledge kept turning over, today, 10 times! More than the day without visibility.
In fact, I have been able to improve the mileage reached yesterday (25.8 Km.), but with an enormous energetic debilitation, in 9h45.
It has been today, exactly 20 days alone, and I walk as a robot around this frozen land, repeating the same daily routines and making de most of my efforts every day.
It is difficult to have such a sensation of extreme loneliness down here...There is nothing, no one lives here, can't see anything else but the ice, can't see anything, etc... I have been listening to myself and the wind for 20 days. And when the wind completely stops (and it's happened twice) the void reaches all, and the most impressive silence that I have ever experienced can be listened.
In fact, it's been 15 days now since I stopped seeing the Elsworth Mountains silhouette in the distance. I'm even without the mountains companionship and I yearn to get to the Thiel Mountain range to be able to find some new ones (8 days to get there approximately).
I would have not expected to be on my own in the middle of Antarctica, and of course, I would rather be with Carles right now. But the truth is that even being so tired and up to my ears with the day tediousness, I think it has also been a special opportunity to do this adventure by myself.
Given my family responsibilities, I would have never approached a challenge of this size solo, but now that I have found myself in it, I am fully enjoying myself. If we get drifted away with the desire of comfort, the luxury of homemade food, the yearning, etc...one always would think to press the exit button. But if one values how unique and special is to be in a place like this, and how intense and enriching is to be by oneself, with your company and your self dialog, will see how fortunate he is, not only for being there but also for enjoying it.
To be all by oneself can be a bit more tedious, a bit more risky, a bit more distressing and a bit tougher. But to be alone for so long and in such special circumstances, also allows doing a very profound internal trip where one has the chance to reflect with plenty of quality about the past, the present and the future of one's course of life.
And if that is done with enough curiosity, interest, freedom and with your notebook open and blank, it becomes a passionate task. And to realize what one keeps finding alongside this past and future internal trip, and it happens not to be bad overall, is certainly good news; because what's for sure true is that to come in a place like this with certain unsolved aspects of life, they end up exploding here.
To be and to do things with the people you love or that are of your trust is very good. But I also think that is also important for people to be capable of searching new experiences to live them alone. I am not referring to crazy stuff like an Antarctic Expedition, but to any simple thing. We always tend to do things in groups. But to be able to know how to be alone, how to travel alone, to be able to find oneself wide open to the world and to oneself, is one of the most rewarding experiences one can experiment.
I DEDICATE THE DAY TO:
Montse Bertran, who is in charge of updating the web every day.
It's a key task that has to be done for a long time, day in day out, even on Holidays, and is the one that allows me to feel less lonely, as it is my own media channel that keeps me connected with you.
Thank you Montse!